first entry ko to dito...yehey..mababasa ko na rin mga entries ni bes.. dapat kahapon ko pa ginawa to kaso .. sorry bes...sobra ako nawili sa blog kong nagkagulo gulo na kaya ayun...di agad ako nakagawa ng account...excited na ako mabasa mga entries mo hehehehe

MY CONFESSIONS: PART 2
LETTING GO

Last October 20 at around 8 in the morning
I was on my way to work when I received a friendly greeting
My hands shaken, my knees weakened and my eyes felt teary
As I read the text “ Hi! I’m back it’s me…”

I was calm but I felt my heart doubled it’s beat
Without noticing my tears fell, but I smiled while I take a seat
My friends huddled up with curiosity and asked
While softly I said “he came back at last”

But the fortunate feeling was only temporary
He’s only here for a vacation and will leave eventually
My world was colored rainbow shadowed with black
Upset I asked, “ Why did he ever came back?”

That moment I supposed we were never meant to be
I guess finding him among the crowed is already enough foe me
I’m giving up my prince so no more fairy tale fantasies
Now at least I’m more mature… and facing reality

But there’s this one quote I read
“Make your once in a lifetime moment the sweetest”
So yah, Why not! I told myself simply
I guess our sweet nothings won’t hurt really

We text everyday, sometimes he calls
There was even one time we went to the mall
I just hate the fact that more we get closer together
The more that I fall for him deeper and deeper

Also he visited me at home one day
Where the whole afternoon he stayed
Simple moments, which are worth to treasure
In my heart it will be kept forever

“I try to block my stupid feeling
but I always end finding how much I still love him”


I really want him back
I can’t deny that fact
He’s all that matters to me
I LOVE him whole-heartedly

How I pathetically crave for his love so true
But there is nothing both of us can do
And I to accept the reason at least he loves me too
I just don’t know if it’s as intense as I do

In the end of course he went back to Germany
And we agreed to be friends only
Anyway it’s about time I set him free
Eventhough I love him so much deeply…


End (-.-)

MY CONFESSIONS: PART 1
PUPPY LOVE

“As a child I dream of fairy tale endings
Where magical characters and perfect fantasies exist
I thought there really was, I have proven I was wrong
Not until the time you came along”

At a young age a girl at 13 years old
Angel met her prince like the fairy books foretold
At her 14th birthday she was given a wonderful gift
It was LOVE – priceless a perfect gif t to give

Like a struck of lightning unfortunately
It was all of a sudden taken away from her
He’s a foreigner, half-German/ half-Filipino you see
He went back to his capital home – back to Germany

“ His words I still remember
It was I LOVE YOU honey”

For almost 2 years they have no communication
And sure without a doubt he has already moved on
What’s left for her now are memories of their past
Every moment with him from first to last

Time has already passed and she still think of him often
Alone she wonder how he is every now and then
Still hoping and wishing he’d return one day
Bring back the old times and love her like yesterday

Unimaginable perhaps, even foolish, Yes! Maybe
It’s puppy love, she know that’s what everybody would see
But Eventhough how childish it may seem to be…
It would still remain true and real for me (“,)

what would you feel.... i mean what would you do... if.. suddenly....there were heated argument between you and someone... as in heated talaga to the point of saying things na hindi na dapat pang sabihin .. na sobrang nakaka hmmmp talaga...as in nakakagigil...at gusto mong sumigaw ng....................

hiramin ko muna ang katagang ito sa bes ko.. dahil sa araw na ito yun ang gusto kong sabihin sa taong gumugulo sa buhay ko at patuloy na nang gugulo right at this minute...

mahirap ba talaga akong kalimutan? o ayaw niya lang talaga akong kalimutan? hindi ako bitter sa paghihiwalay namin ... ang tamang kataga para dun is that.... ang saya saya hehehe. .. ewan ko ba.. minahal ko naman sya pero feeling ko pabigat lang sya sa buhay ko. feeling ko kc hindi ako nag grow habang kasama ko sya though me mga bagay naman na naging good for me.......pero siguro un lang talaga ang gusto ko munang isipin sa ngayon para madali ko syang makalimutan.. actually limot ko na kaso nga lang he's been texting and calling na sometimes i feel like ....... ang kulit.......

here's a song from Jeff Buckley... Last Goodbye....... sana lang.. wish ko lang... tumigil na sya

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this before I go
You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know
This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this and more?
Baby, maybe its 'cause you didn't know me at all
Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, not consolation
Oh, you know it makes me so angry
'Cause I know that in time, I'll only make you cry
this is our last goodbye
Did you say, "No, this can't happen to me"
Did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn't know him at all
Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes
And the memories offer signs that it's over
Over...

copy ko lang to mula sa kabila hehehe

friday na naman...............and its the first friday of the month............the day went on well naman except for those annoying text na hindi ko naman pinatulan during the morning pero nun hapon na e di na kinaya ng powers ko ang pasensya kaya nakatikim na sya ng tarak ng kamandag ni berta kaya ayun.. nag mellow din sya pero sige pa rin ng pang aasar.. hay naku..tatanda ako ng husto pag pinansin ko ng pinansin... good thing me dumating na grasya kaya ayun napangiti na naman ako ng abot hanggang tenga

explore to the max kami nila purple and mabic.. nakausap ko pa si renz sa ym and syempre ask ko sya about his so called "isang linggong pag-ibig"...tsk tsk tong mga anak kong to talaga o nawala lang ang nanay nila e kung ano ano ng pinag gagawa kaya minsan mahirap sa mga kabataan ang malayo sa mga nanay nila dahil hindi sila nasusubaybayan sa kanilang mga kilos at desisyon...

mejo umuuulan when i was about to go home na kaya mejo nalate ako ng dating sa quiapo church... alam ko mejo me galit ako nung morning till tanghali pa and pinakikiramdaman ko sarili ko kung nandun pa ba un feeling na yon kc kung ganun pa rin e might as well go home na nga lang at wag na muna magsimba... pero ewan ko ba.. siguro gusto NYA talaga ako makapiling sa araw na un at habang papalapit ako ng papalapit sa Tahanan NYA ay nararamdaman ko na nagiging masaya ako inside and out... nakalimutan ko yong pang aasar na ginawa ng isang tao kanina sa akin at naka smile na ako pagpasok ko sa Tahanan NYA

mejo nawala sa isip ko na first friday ngayon kaya hindi ako umalis ng maaga sa work.... susme pagdating ko ang daming tao sobra.. kahit umuulan e ang dami pa rin sa labas ng simbahan at kailangan ko pang sumiksik para lang di mabasa (ayaw ko kc ilabas ang payong ko at baka mabasa hehehe)... good thing patapos na un mass pagdating ko kaya wala pang isang minuto ang hinintay ko at nakapasok na rin ako... naaliw pa ako dun sa mag bf na nasa unahan ko kc nakipagsiksikan sila para dun sa pagbless.... at wow... napangiti ako when i saw their hands together na nakataas... haaay ang sweet nila.. dun namemelt ang heart ko pag ganun ang guy.... naisip ko tuloy.. ang swerte naman ng babaing to

every week ako nagsisimba dito sa quiapo and every week din ako me napapansing pagbabago.. this time ang napansin ko e ang vidi wall..kung un nga ang tawag dun..asenso na...computerized na .. a few months ago naalala ko natawa pa ako kc sa pari lang finofocus un camera and sa gitna ng kaseryosohan ng mass aba ewan ko ba naman dun sa camera man at sa pari lang itinutuk ang camera kahit pa nga nagbabasa pa un lector..ayun di aware ang pari na sa kanya pala nakatutok un camera napahikab ang swak na swak sa camera un butas ng ilong nya hehehehe...di ko tuloy naiwasan mapangiti during that time though lam ko na dapat pinigilan ko kc its one way of distracting my attention from the mass

now, back to the mass...sapul ako sa sermon.. i mean not really sapul kundi nagkataon lang na ung verse na binasa is about dun sa pinababantayan na lupain ng panginoon at nung malaman nya na minimis manage ng kanyang katiwala ay binawi nya ito .... nakaka relate ako dito kc a few days ago ganito ginawa ko dun sa pinababantay ko sa province... binawi ko sa kanya at pinabantayan sa iba at kahit na ano pang pagmakaawa nya ay di ko pinagbigyan dahil sya lang ang kumikita at ako ay hindi kc ang dami dami nyang reasons everytime tapos na silang magcopra tsk tsk tsk bakit nga ba me taong ganito?

sa mass pa rin.. since yoko naman magkwento tungkol dun sa grrrrr ...... ask ng priest..bakit daw ang tao pag nagsisimba e kelangan 1 hour lang talaga ang nakalaan nilang oras para dun at kapag matandang pari na ang nag o officiate ng mass at mabagal magsalita o kaya naman mejo napahaba ang sermon ng pari at inip na inip na gustong gusto ng lumabas or ung iba naman na hindi talaga makatiis e lumalabas kahit na nasa kalagitnaan ng sermon.. meaning.. masyadong nagmamadali ang mga tao pag sa simbahan ang punta.. pero pag ka sa mall daw or sa pasyalan o sa kung saan man kahit abutin pa ng 2 hours mahigit ay walang reklamo at minsan paglabas pa ng sinehan at sasabihin pa na "bitin ang palabas"..... honga naman.. bakit nga ba hindi tayo makapag bigay ng buong isang oras sa Kanya gayong inuubos naman natin ang lahat ng oras natin sa trabaho, gala at kung ano ano pang pinagkakaabalahan


nasa baba ang pic ng old quiapo...pati na rin ang twisted candle at ang famous kung saan meron nito.... ang dinadayo ng mga kababaihan ..tabi tabi po ha ... ang ........ pamparegla hehehe

http://news.inq7.net/infotech/index.php?index=1&story_id=15835

Updated 06:45pm (Mla time) Oct 23, 2004
By Joey Alarilla
INQ7.net


SURE, most of you have heard of Friendster, but did you know the Philippines has a Filipino version called Prendster?
Well, actually a number of Filipino Friendster-type services have come and gone, but Prendster has gone from being a Friendster “spoof “ to a thriving online community, with more than 11,000 registered members, according to webmaster Hanzel. Incidentally, I confirmed this by registering as a user myself; in fact, Hanzel said that they would have even more members if they did not remove 7, 000 inactive members on July 26.

Hanzel shared that the initial Friendster spoof was only limited to the “network of friends” image, which is still on the site’s main page but is now smaller. Prendster, however, could not offer similar services and instead transformed itself into a forum-based online community.

“We had limited resources and knew very little about web programming then, so we resorted to forums instead. It was only on July 22 that we added the Social Networking

System which is in some ways similar to that of Friendster,” Hanzel shared.

From what I’ve seen so far, Prendster does have a very lively online community compared to other forum-based ones. What differentiates Prendster from these other sites?

“Well, I think what makes Prendster different from other forums are its features and innovations. Unlike other forum-based Filipino communities, Prendster is accessible via WAP (wireless application protocol; access http://wap.prendster.com using your mobile phone to try it out. Unfortunately, however, the site disclaimer states that “it is inaccessible for Globe GPRS users”) and has a Social Networking System integrated with the forums, which allows users to send invitations and testimonials to their friends. We may not be the best but we’re very happy with what our community has become in less than a year,” Hanzel said.

According to Hanzel, the Prendster community has had several eyeballs (EB) in the past months and they hope to have a grand EB to celebrate their first anniversary on December 22.

And what are their plans for 2005?

“We hope our active user base will grow. We’re also planning to bring back the free e-mail service for our members as well as the Web-based trivia game next year, because we really want to give our members the kind of enjoyment they deserve. As our saying goes, ‘Prendster cures boredom.’”

Visit Prendster at www.prendster.com

mahilig ka bang kumanta? .. sa ating mga pilipino e natural na yan... pangalawa ang videoke sa kinagigiliwan ng mga pinoy.... pero kung hilig mo ang kumanta.. ako naman ay hindi gaano....hehehe once in a blue moon ko lang mapractice ang boses ko kc wala ako palagi sa mood.. or should i say nahihiya ako... pero kahapon? naku ginanahan ako.... pumunta kami encore and ayun... sing to death ang lola tutal un friend ko lang naman ang nakakarinig... good thing mga pinggan at baso lang ang nabasag at di na tumuloy pag bagsak ang malakas na ulan hehehe

kahapon ko lang nagawa to sa tanang buhay ko... kahit anong pilit sa akin kumanta mapa public man o private o kahit sa haws.. its a no no for me... takot ako baka ako ay pumiyok... pero kahapon.. nawala lahat ng hiya at takot ko hehehe..ewan ko ba sing to the max talaga ako... di nga makahirit sa mike un kasama ko e hehehe

ayan ganito feeling ko kahapon
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wahehehe napapatawa at napapakanta ako ngayon dahil sa kalokohang ginawa ko.... di ko alam kung talagang kalokohan un.. pero all i know is that... ipinakita ko na pag sinabi kong gaganti ako gaganti talaga ako... i know bad yong ganun pero ganun ako e... pag niprovoke mo lalo kung gagawin at lalo kong ipapakita sa yo na kaya kong gawin...pero sa isang taon lang yon.. ewan ko ba...di ko talaga kaya pagpasensyahan...at di kaya ng powers ko na i take for granted ang mga ginawa nyang mali..... i know na kelangan natin to forgive and forget pero di ko kaya talaga ...lalo akong nang gigigil kaya nun makagantin ako??? wahehehe abot tenga ang ngiti ko.. i dont care what the reaction is...i dont even care kung ano gagawin nya sa galit.. all i know is that ... i'm soooooooooo happy dahil nakaganti na rin ako... bad ko talaga no?

gising naman ako... at lalong alive ang conscience ko.... pero gusto ko lang talaga gumanti para maramdaman nya lahat ng galit ko... harharharhar

o .. iko congratulate mo ba ako? o papaluin mo ko sa talampakan? hehehehe